Letter to my unborn child!

To my sweet angel,

It really makes no sense to me, you were just here and now you’re gone. You were a part of me and now you’re not Really. Seems cruel, this is something I’ll never understand. Firstly, I wanna say for the time you were with me I was soooooo happy, I saw your face immediately. Well, what I thought would be your face! I knew you’d be perfect! perfect to me anyway! I imagined the sound of your voice when you laughed. I imagined your first day of school. I thought we’d make a great team and that we’d be best friends! You were everything I wanted. You were my little Nash!

You have no idea how sad I am that we never got to meet, that I won’t get to teach you to tie your shoe laces or brush your teeth. Things we would normally take for granted. The only reason I can think of why you were taken from me is that you were too perfect for this cold cold world. It wasn’t our destiny I’m devastated to say.

You hear mums talk about ‘mummy guilt’ all the time, regarding work or social but I to am suffering from mummy guilt because I failed to keep you safe for the nine months that you needed. I failed to protect you! I can’t seem to forgive myself for that and I’m so sorry Nash.

But now I have my own personal angel, an angel to watch to over me, an angel to have my back, an angel on my shoulder and believe me, I need you! I’ll look for you in every rainbow!

Love always,

Your mama 😘❤️💔👼🏽🤱🏽🤰🏽👨‍👩‍👧‍👦🌈✨